Loser Behavior

One of the most tragic realizations I find is that most people are stuck and don’t ever realize they themselves are the reason for their stagnation.

As I do my best in trying to do the uncomfortable things that will hopefully improve me and get me closer to my dreams, I see how uninspired or stuck most people are around me. Like, they all have their own goals they strive to go towards, but often times it never translates to a sense of presence when I’m with them. It’s almost as if they are satisfied with the equivalent of the infinite tsukyomi, or the infinite dream, where only safe and happy things occur in your life and ignore everything else outside of it. This ties in a little bit into selfishness and being ignorant, but really it is the equivalent of being satisfied of being stuck inside a waiting room with some lackluster entertainment. They are completely enamored with the stuff in the waiting room and never realize the main event outside of it… living life to the fullest extent possible.

I understand what it’s like though. Often times, I feel the sense that whatever I do is not as fun and fulfilling as say getting really good at Deadlock or being satisfied with the comforts my life has accepted so far. It’s really annoying how the good feelings I should be getting in making meaningful changes to my life are sort of delayed and seems to be received in hindsight. This feels like I am missing this sense of actually enjoying the process of struggling to learn a new thing. And without that feedback, I end up like the rest of these people who seem to have gone seemingly hollow.

I, of course, am projecting this idea on people and have no clue on if they truly are pursuing the things that matter to them. But I must say, it is as clear as day when people either have built nothing of meaning to them or have no other way to spend the time outside of consuming and/or idling by.

I’ve enountered multiple cases of people who feel as though there is no point in breaking out of this stagnating cycle. They continue to act with loser behavior and just do stuff that never truly challenges their core being. There are glimpses of change, but often times they have narrowly decided that they are completely cooked for whatever reason. Whether it be trauma or just out of built up habits, they find whatever excuse prevents them from actually trying to continue the fight to change. Doomers if you will.

I liken them to the Anti-Spiral in Gurren Lagann and often remember one of the quotes Simon says to the Anti-Spiral being in response to: Why can’t you see the limitation of the Spiral races?

“No, that’s your limitation! You sit here in your closed-off universe, locking away other lifeforms like you’re some kind of king! That’s nobody’s limitation but your own!”

It’s hard for me to accept that anyone’s situation is truly doomed. I am quite aware that I myself may have struggled, but have not experienced the unimaginable suffering or despair that comes with deep seated trauma or the like. While I know it’s never a guarantee for everything to work out, I agree with Simon it is aggregiously arrogant to assume that’s the limit to your own life. To continue being a loser and therefore just settle for the figments of what life truly has to offer.