Infinity

Limiting your mind to what you can think of rather than what is actually possible is a great tragedy.

Finite beings are limited to the options available to them: from their environment, socioeconomic factors, genetics, etc. However, with the help of some entropy (chaos) and other finite beings, the options are endless. I now understand that there is a certain deterministic throughline through everything in a macro sense, but from a basic individual sense, you truly can become anything that you allow yourself to be.

To me, the question of “does God exist?” is one of those questions that is paraodxically important and pointless at the same time. It is important to question one’s existence and to realize the string of causation that connects everything together. Being able to do that line of questioning is what makes us human… but to do that so much you lose touch with “reality”?

This is why I have this weird love/hate relationship with philosophy. It is helpful to hear what all these other human’s perspectives on life and reality, but merely knowing all these bits of knowledge is useless if you don’t actually apply it. I have a bit of pragmatism in me that wants things to be useful rather than just all talk.

Here’s what I believe so far:

• God exists, but not in the way that can be truly understood by human beings
• Finite beings only have a finite set of options, but an endless amount if combined with a larger perspective such as stories and other people
• Infinity is such a radical idea that to truly understand it, it would literally look like insanity
• Beliefs in all these types of gods and concepts aren’t inherently bad as most have underlying throughlines that retain an aspect of truth
• Even though we are finite beings, our actual perception of reality really does shape where our lives can go
• The world is inherently unfair, but is fair in the sense that there is no higher purpose or absolute that dictates your life
• Intellectually I think this but I have not gone through enough real world experience to challenge it all; would I think the same if trauma and tragedy occur in my life?

I think from these set of beliefs, I’ve ultimately concluded within my mindset that I must challenge the reality that I currently live in. Not in the sense that everything is all orchestrated against you (though I am not refuting that it likely exists in many layers), but in the sense that we are living within our own self limited caverns that needs to be dug through.

“My drill is the drill that will pierce the heavens!” “My drill is the drill that creates the heavens!”

These two lines from Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann continue to resonate with me and are basically direct metaphors of what I’ve come to realize over the years. The drill is a representation of how incremental progress is made, spinning itself to make progress bit by bit. Though it is a mere drill, to boldly declare it to pierce the heavens is to say I will reach the point of infinity: to do the impossible. Sure, real life isn’t exactly like Gurren Lagann, but the core element still remains that we have the spiral energy, the determination to actually row row fight the power.