Notes and showcases from ninjaruss.net — live without regret.https://ninjaruss.net/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/why-one-must-fall/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/why-one-must-fall/What does it mean to fall? Throughout the story of Remember Rain, I am trying to express a fundamental truth I’ve come to believe in based on my life so far. That I feel like when I aspire to change and try to become something more than the current me, there’s an inherent friction that continues to…Tue, 28 Jul 2026 00:00:00 GMTnotehttps://ninjaruss.net/notes/i-am-ninjaruss/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/i-am-ninjaruss/In spite of it all, I am Ninjaruss. I've figured it's a good a time as any to make a defined declaration for myself. This idea is taken from the numerous talks on mindset and psychology that I've came across over my own wandering of the YouTube algorithm. I have stated multiple times that I do not…Tue, 14 Jul 2026 00:00:00 GMTnotehttps://ninjaruss.net/notes/avoidance/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/avoidance/Can't run away from your problems, yet it's easy to defer them to the point of ruin... Anyone who has interacted with me for an extended period of time will have noticed by now, but one of my main coping mechanisms is simply retreating towards myself. I haven't really noticed how much this trend…Thu, 25 Jun 2026 00:00:00 GMTnotehttps://ninjaruss.net/notes/graduation/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/graduation/Ay congratulations, it's a celebration! Party all day, I knew you've been waiting! I have attended multiple graduation ceremonies throughout the years and I will say that the fall off past high school years exists. I believe this might just be my growing distance from connecting with the school…Thu, 28 May 2026 00:00:00 GMTnotehttps://ninjaruss.net/notes/real-weeb/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/real-weeb/Where are the real weebs? This seems like a dumb question, but it is one I find myself asking to find the core root of a true anime fan. If it wasn't apparent from the recent trend of calling people LARPers if they are pretending to like weeb stuff, there seems to be a growing rise of discerning…Mon, 11 May 2026 00:00:00 GMTnotehttps://ninjaruss.net/notes/entitlement/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/entitlement/Entitled people are people with no self awareness of their life in context to the world Despite my constant reminder for myself that people have contexts for their life and I should not be a judge of that, I will say that it doesn't help that I feel like garbage when these type of people inevitably…Mon, 27 Apr 2026 00:00:00 GMTnotehttps://ninjaruss.net/notes/jp-journal/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/jp-journal/2026-04-27 私はラスセルです。名前はニンジャラス。日本語の勉強は無坂しいです。でも、アニメが好きですよ。世界はおおきいです。 今日、私はぼっちみって。 2026-07-14 僕は忍者ラスです。僕の心と頭が戦っている。Sun, 26 Apr 2026 00:00:00 GMTnotehttps://ninjaruss.net/showcase/kaima/https://ninjaruss.net/showcase/kaima/Do the impossible, see the invisible... So I originally intended to make a experimental channel that combines my love for the idea of ninjas with an emphasis on introspection. The kanji used for the name KAIMA creates the meaning regret demon with it being showcased from a mask I bought online to…Sat, 25 Apr 2026 00:00:00 GMTshowcasehttps://ninjaruss.net/notes/vibe-learning/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/vibe-learning/You've heard of vibe coding? This is the next step of my vibe evolution... Learning Japanese so far looks like a long journey that often makes me forget how much I've come so far, even as a complete beginner. One of the more useful things I've learned is the idea of attaching stories and mneumonics…Mon, 20 Apr 2026 00:00:00 GMTnotehttps://ninjaruss.net/notes/live-without-regret/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/live-without-regret/What does it mean to live without regret? I've now clung onto this as my own mantra for living at the moment. Before, I did not really have a singular mantra outside of combinations of the stuff I've observered, learned, and experienced over the years. The closest thing to one would be the cheesy…Sat, 11 Apr 2026 00:00:00 GMTnotehttps://ninjaruss.net/notes/loser-behavior/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/loser-behavior/One of the most tragic realizations I find is that most people are stuck and don't ever realize they themselves are the reason for their stagnation. As I do my best in trying to do the uncomfortable things that will hopefully improve me and get me closer to my dreams, I see how uninspired or stuck…Tue, 07 Apr 2026 00:00:00 GMTnotehttps://ninjaruss.net/showcase/l-file/https://ninjaruss.net/showcase/l-file/I finally did it! The Usogui database is now live on the Internet! L-file website I was looking to try my hand at making a full production website while using... Claude Code. Yes, this website is immensely vibe coded, but I wanted to make sure that the priority was to make a stable enough database…Sat, 07 Feb 2026 00:00:00 GMTshowcasehttps://ninjaruss.net/notes/current-objectives/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/current-objectives/My continuous list of objectives. MAIN - Build and focus on a single online business (podcast? community hub?) - Make a structured outline for Remember Rain as a web novel - Learn Japanese through watching Japanese shows/anime to a basic conversational level by May 2026 (i.e. I can go into Japanese…Fri, 13 Feb 2026 00:00:00 GMTnotehttps://ninjaruss.net/notes/reason-for-japan/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/reason-for-japan/I became interested in Japan by proxy from all the media I've enjoyed over the years. Since middle school, I had so many things that I was interested in which originated from Japan. Of course, anime dubbed in English such as Dragon Ball Z Kai was a big thing, but I realized that there were so many…Tue, 17 Mar 2026 00:00:00 GMTnotehttps://ninjaruss.net/notes/infinity/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/infinity/Limiting your mind to what you can think of rather than what is actually possible is a great tragedy. Finite beings are limited to the options available to them: from their environment, socioeconomic factors, genetics, etc. However, with the help of some entropy (chaos) and other finite beings, the…Sat, 14 Mar 2026 00:00:00 GMTnotehttps://ninjaruss.net/notes/japanese-special/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/japanese-special/What has fostered the growth and development of art in Japan? I have this feeling that there's more to Japan than it meets the eye when it comes to the culture that has exploded from there. Notably, all of the amazing stories from the anime/manga I enjoy. I understand that every culture around the…Mon, 09 Mar 2026 00:00:00 GMTnotehttps://ninjaruss.net/notes/animals/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/animals/Just like animals, animals, like animals... If there's one thing I get constantly reminded by in the real world, it's that most people act like animals. As in, mostly everyone operates on survival instincts and whatever social conditioning they've received throughout the years. It manifests in…Fri, 06 Mar 2026 00:00:00 GMTnotehttps://ninjaruss.net/notes/live-streaming/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/live-streaming/Live streaming is the best and worst thing to do for my brain. I made a video on this topic already, but wanted to elaborate on some of the appeal that live streaming has for me. What is abundantly clear for me is that my mind is a mess of so many thoughts and plans that it's difficult to fully be…Mon, 02 Mar 2026 00:00:00 GMTnotehttps://ninjaruss.net/showcase/fuma-shi/https://ninjaruss.net/showcase/fuma-shi/Ninjaruss origins go far deep, so far so that I had my own ninja roleplay group. For someone with ninja embedded in their username, this shouldn't be a surprise right? Well, the makings of this group was so weird and contained that even I'm surprised how this came about. Fuma-shi is a roleplay…Sat, 21 Feb 2026 00:00:00 GMTshowcasehttps://ninjaruss.net/notes/addiction/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/addiction/I seem to have a very addictive personality. Lately, I've been having trouble getting off doomscrolling on YouTube shorts and spending a little too long on my latest replacement, Deadlock, for my stimming game of choice at the moment. As I mentioned during the Now post for this month, I have…Fri, 20 Feb 2026 00:00:00 GMTnotehttps://ninjaruss.net/notes/bitcoin/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/bitcoin/Bitcoin is both an amazing solution and an instant trap for the laymen... That's what I feel like right now on it. I myself am not a money hustler, but I am pretty frugal and do take some strides in ensuring I am secure. I was fortunate enough to have an upbringing where saving money and not…Sun, 08 Feb 2026 00:00:00 GMTnotehttps://ninjaruss.net/notes/hermit/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/hermit/I am a lowkey hermit. At least, in terms of my social relationships. I was wondering why I've become a sort of recluse where I'll disappear for months at a time before interacting with my friends in person. It's less obvious now since as an adult it's difficult to always make time to see every…Sat, 07 Feb 2026 00:00:00 GMTnotehttps://ninjaruss.net/notes/waifus/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/waifus/Waifus, unlimited waifus, but no waifus. So to preface, I treat the term waifu as a meme. Actually treating a fictional character as your idealized wife is a bit weird, even for me. However, this term has sort of stuck itself into my vocabulary and I think this is no coincidence. Perhaps it's a…Sat, 07 Feb 2026 00:00:00 GMTnotehttps://ninjaruss.net/notes/gratitude/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/gratitude/Be grateful for everything you have... At least, that's what you should do. But the issue is, how do you go about proving that you're grateful? Take for instance my own life, I am fortunate enough to have so many good things going for me like having two loving parents, living in a stable…Sun, 01 Feb 2026 00:00:00 GMTnotehttps://ninjaruss.net/notes/subtle-progress/https://ninjaruss.net/notes/subtle-progress/I am changing constantly, but to everyone else and even myself, I haven't changed much at all. This is a problem I have been struggling with recently. I've made some relatively big decisions such as driving a motorcycle, going out of my way to attend big events, and even moving forward towards a…Sat, 31 Jan 2026 00:00:00 GMTnotehttps://ninjaruss.net/showcase/marie-video-essay/https://ninjaruss.net/showcase/marie-video-essay/I really liked Marie's character from Persona 4 Golden so much that I made a whole video essay on her. Not only that, I went out of my way to express myself through her character. Why is that? In creating this video, there were multiple things that really made this a truly special video for me. - I…Sun, 11 Jan 2026 00:00:00 GMTshowcasehttps://ninjaruss.net/showcase/this-website/https://ninjaruss.net/showcase/this-website/This is my (3rd?) attempt at making a personal website. I've tried making one in the past multiple times, but they all usually end up clunky or I lose the motivation to work on it. This time though? I have the power of AI on my side! Jokes aside, I built this site on a whim as I was really…Sun, 11 Jan 2026 00:00:00 GMTshowcase